i feel fucking terrible.
but tell me how this is even remotely fair.
i should be stronger and i wish i could be
chay, why do you keep doing this to yourself?
nothing hurts worse than learning you can’t fix what was broken because it’s not even there anymore.
sorry that i didn’t…
no, wait, i forgot, i did EVERYTHING RIGHT.
like a punch to the gut only so much worse
*punches self in face*
it’s so weird to give it a quantification.
i am being ignored.
she is ignoring me.
full-on and intentional.
at first i really did think it was just, you know, space. just needing space or something. i don’t know. maybe it’s still just that. but this feels a bit more plotted and planned. this seems a bit more in general.
i don’t know, maybe i’m reading entirely too much into this.
either way, i’m tired.